Today is hitting me extra hard this year. It was hitting me hard yesterday too in fact. I got on facebook yesterday, and one of the first things I saw was this picture my cousin had uploaded.
The past few years this anniversary has made me sad, but not really affected me the way it is this year. I have no idea why I am having such a hard time this year. I feel like I need to walk around with a warning label on my forehead that I could burst into tears at any moment. It's a little ridiculous, and it makes me feel stupid. I wish I could talk to Sean about how I am feeling, but I just don't think he can relate, and he definitely doesn't know what to say to be comforting. I can't really blame him though. How on earth would he know what to say or do to help when a) he's never lost a parent, and b) he's not an emotionally connected person.
Any suggestions on how to handle feeling like this? I don't want to upset my kids because I'm upset. Also, any suggestions on broaching the topic with Sean? I want to be able to talk to him about this, but don't really know how to approach it, and I don't know what to tell him I need from him to help me. Granted, sometimes all I need is a hug, but I'm sure he could use some helpful tips on other ideas when I'm having a rough day.